Being

After reading and absorbing some of the wonderful content of Eckhart Tolle's: A New Earth, Awakening to Your Life's Purpose, I feel renewed in my spirit of fulfillment. A recurring message in many of the books and articles I am drawn to encourage living in the now, the current moment which right now is writing this blog entry. Our future is a life time of now moments. I want to be present to now moments so that I can feel life fully and also recognize the peace that exists and that is possible in each moment. Yesterday I was in Los Angeles and the meeting went longer than I had planned so I needed to find a later flight home to San Francisco. My co-worker Lisa offered a ride in her rental car, which she also needed to return and hence we were getting quite close to missing the next flight too. Lisa continued to chat away about everything related to our day, her career and seemed quite calm amidst the time clicking away. However in her moments of calm and joy, I was ok knowing that all would be well whether I made my flight or not. It was in that moment and this moment that peace was present, I just needed to be. Being is not something I am good at, doing is more of my way, as I am productive by nature. However, I found in just being that all was well and all is well. Eckhart Tolle ends his book with the reminder that there are three modalities of awakened doing - I would say being and they are: acceptance, joy and enthusiasm. I practiced acceptance and it made being.....perfect.

Knowing Oneself

Uncovering my crusty ways is hard and yet in the end liberating. Joe took me on a relationship weekend and in the "process" we discovered depth of each other that led me to deeper connection with myself and Joe. As I reflect back on this weekend and open my self to a deeper understanding of my feelings, there are areas that might be expressed as pride, judgment and unstated sadness, that get reflected in unkind words, anger or resistance and saying nothing at all and yet being frustrated, disappointed or sad. As I am able to distinguish more clearly this self from SELF and express it from my I AM way, I am able to live more fully in accepting all of me and hopefully/prayerfully/practically all of others without judgment and resistance.

Practicing Meditation

I try to practice meditation with some frequency and have found myself not taking time lately. Yet this morning I awoke to a deep desire to sit in the silence and create a calm space for God to rest. So many requests I make in prayer, I tried to sit and yet the silence was hard. I was accepted just the same and feel grateful for the practice. Thirty minutes goes by too fast and I look forward to tomorrow morning when I shall try to quiet the mind again. Meditation is a gift to ourselves and the world for as we begin to quiet ourselves, the universe whispers peace.

Subconscious Suffering

This morning as I was praying/pondering, not sure what I was doing, whatever it was caused subconscious suffering to be revealed. Some time ago I offended a relative of mine by saying the wrong thing, actually 25 years of saying the wrong things. I have been cut off from our relationship and indirectly feel cut off from many related relationships and while I often say it does not hurt, this morning it was completely at the surface and hurts deeply bringing me to tears. I find when I write I am able to purge my suffering to paper and something wonderful is happening even as I write in this moment. I am able to get the suffering out of my physical/mental/emotional system and peace reveals herself to me again. And now even wisdom in her beauty is surfacing reminding me to keep loving, to keep forgiving myself and to keep present to the moments of now and now and now where peace is here.

The Love of God Revealed When we Lift Our Veil of Humanity

Sarah Anne, my niece and God daughter graduated from kindergarten on May 23 and I had the honor of attending this celebration milestone. She is 6 years old and waved to me from the little chair she sat in at the school gymnasium for the event. She sang out loud a variety of songs and she played afterwards with her fellow students getting autographs from her friends in the book the teachers and students put together as a parting gift for kindergarten. What strikes me most are two things: the joy and freedom Sarah had for the event, her family and her friends and secondly when one of her little friends Meadow could not locate her mother, Sarah stepped out of the buffet line and walked with Meadow until she found her mother. Sarah's veil is always lifted. Perhaps her blessed youth will last forever enabling her to reveal God's love always through authentic living as expressed through her wave to the audience, loud beautiful singing and smiles for the camera along with her service to her friend and family. Sarah your sparkle is the unveiled life you live. Thank you for including me in your life. What veil keeps you from living in a more authentic way for yourself and your family? Lifting the veil to full expression is the revelation of the SELF in all its glory.